Shhhhh

I watched The Secret with a friend this afternoon. She'd never seen it before and I seem to have forgotten what the Secret is. Well, now I remember. So I sat down and not only did I visualize myself as fit and trim, I FELT it. It feels like my entire body has been in a cast for most of my life (even my head) and the cast was cut off. As it fell away, I had to reach down and hold onto the chair so my comparatively weightless body would not float off like a helium balloon.

Apparently, attitude is everything.

This little exercise brought to mind a psychic reading I had a number of years ago. I asked the psychic why I'm fat and what I need to do to lose weight. She said "you look fine to me. I don't think you need to do anything." (?!) Then, even though she wasn't, she proceeded to tell me that it is not at all uncommon for people with psychic abilities to be heavy. I remember to this day, she said, "you're not fat, you're psychic." (Yeah well, tell my knees that.) She told me the extra weight is just a form of protection. As I open and release all that psychic armor/protection, the weight will just fall away." I think that must have been about a decade ago. Since then I've read dozens of self-help and spiritual books, tried meditating, did about 4 years of therapy. Apparently, all to no avail. Guess my armor is still up cause nothing is falling away.