Emotional Brakes

I'm furious! It started over gratuitous, unnecessary remarks in a brief phone conversation with my FRICKEN CRAZY daughter. There was a real subtext for the tension, but the actual conflict involved a stupid trading of barbs.

The interesting thing, from the perspective of this blog, is the physical reaction I experienced. I felt the rush of adrenaline, flight or fight. Although for me, it was all about the fight. I was pissed! Fortunately, it was a phone call which she ended because she also was pissed. With no opportunity to fight, I had to figure what else I might do with the sick, out-of-wack blood sugar sensation I was experiencing. I called and spoke briefly with my other daughter (who was on the phone with Crazy). She suggested we just lay low and not speak to each other for a bit while we cooled off. Otherwise we would probably say mean things we would later regret.

Now I know there are many and real issues associated with each button we carelessly pushed in our brief conversation. Not sure how we ever really deal with them, or if I really want to. But, I notice that emotions STOP me in my tracks. I became unable to continue what I'd been working on, still can't. So, to change what I usually do (which is probably to start eating something), I'm taking a walk - right now.